The Phi Number

There are something that you know doing will not be of any use….but u still do it…just for the sake of u missing that person or maybe u just wanna make urself feel better..

Last nite I told someone that I’m sending messages to Blaze..his response was like..why are you keep sending when u know he wont receive it?

That reply was like…a blow to the face or a slap…a cruel one…I do not know why but im very very sad when i heard that..but of course its nothing compared to when i heard that he’s gone…

I know he’s gone…sending those msg was like writing a diary …nothing harmful right?

I don’t know…i know this friend is just being nice..cared bout me i guess…

sorry to have worry my friends…im fine and im gonna be leading this life very well..no worry on tat…k?

take k friends

Have anyone watched a Korean movie titled "Windstruck" before?

Its’ about a gal who’s bf has died..this gal tried commtitted suicide several times,yet she was somehow saved by her bf..The guy once said if he died one day, he would want to become the wind, whenever the gal felt the wind blowing, she should know that he’s beside her always..

Yesterday i felt the wind blowing…I stared at the dried leaves being blown by the wind…somehow…I felt like..touched..almost cried on the spot..but I didn’t..maybe I have accepted the fact that he’s gone forever..

About the movie, its a real comedy cum tragic plot…sad but somehow warm…I watched it and i cried so hard till my eyes were too swollen the next day..the gal get to see the guy 49 days after his death…I got to see him 3years later in my dreams..I cried so hard after waking up…and believe it or not…it was a day after my birthday..

Thanks blaze…for always being there for me..

I bought new digicam! Yes…a Kodak C360 (i guess so)..good photos..good package..good price!For less than RM 1.0k i can get something like this..not bad!

Anyway…Ive been having migraine headaches for more than a week…still waiting for it to go off..Y cant it just turn into some fever so tat i’ll know at least its curable..sigh…cant even take an MC for tat..

Yea….btw…a friend of mine on the net actually called me all the way from AUS..that’s so cool…i mean…i dont expect tat he would call at any rate…He’s a great guy and yea..he’s reading this, i know..(otherwise i wouldn’t have said he’s a cool guy right?) He’s a nice ambitious guy , that much i know..:)

That’s it from me…take k everyone

Yesterday i was lucky to get into a bus earlier …it was late the day before..

When the bus reached bukit bintang…again i saw another same moth,outside the window of the bus…the moth was trying to fly towards me …

at that point of time..i felt kinda touched..its like..he’s trying to show me that he’s always beside me wherever…

i know at that time…all this time…i wasn;t that lonely after all..

miss you blaze..from princess

Have anyone ever seen a giant grey white kinda moth? I’m not sure whether its the season now but i’ve been seeing quite a few..

The chinese believes that the moth actually carries the soul of someone who’s gone in them. I saw three to four of those moths in one day on my way to klcc. I saw another one on the next day, resting above my head.

I cant help but think that the moth carries the soul of someone i miss dearly. When i saw those moths, i felt at least i am not that lonely,he’s always beside me. If "When you say nothing at all" is played at that time, trust me it will never fail to trigger tears from me.

I’d always wish that he didn’t leave for good. But somehow you cant always want things to go your way. There are times you have it, and there are times when you should let go. Letting go is the hardest word to learn for every human kind, for the fact that human are greedy; they want the best from both sides. I let him go to find a so called better guy, which ended up to be the worst jerk ever. Well,C’est la vie! That’s life, always that way. Making you happy at one time and making you damn sad at another point of time.

I don’t wish to see those moths again, I want to see him in person.

Sounds like horror flick?Ohh.. I love horror movies, but this is certainly gonna be a love story instead.:)