The Phi Number

Hi everyone!

Yea…my comp was recently reformatted after being hit by the trojan..sigh…anyway i learnt on how to reformat a comp.. so after all it wasnt tat bad huh?:) But bad news…i still don’t know how to configure my ADSL modem…sigh again..

Well…last tuesday was my ex-colleague’s last day..so she decided to bring this "lil’ girl " to her friend’s gathering-cum-birthday celebration thingie..at SoulED Out in Sri Hartamas…it was packed despite the fact that it was a weekday..yea..had a great time..:)

I didn’t know my blog has much effect on people on my friendster’s list..when this guy called daniel (pending approval to put his name in my blog) were sending me home that day …he asked me how was my cough since it has been more than a month..i was shocked how did he know it or who told him that ….then he replied.."Erm..actually..you told us.." Hah! Oh..my Blog. .:)

Yea.. thanks daniel…for the lift…yea from meiyee…NOT angel, ok? And this sweet guy’s number is in my friendster’s friend called Connie or SuChew’s testimonial from danny… Not bad isnt it, Daniel? Advertising you somemore

My problem earlier? Oh…things are going on fine..well..it wasnt tat much of a problem now…at least i don’t think so..

Take k everyone:)

Has anyone ever felt this way…

Being brought up so SO high with plenty of hopes and dreams…and all of a sudden when you just turned your back, you were kicked down to the deepest cliff ever…but the thing is…you didn’t die…you survived the fall but your heart is shattered…

I’m fine…have seen the best and worst of life..know how the world goes round now…the more and badly you wanted something…the more you wont get it..there are things better left to itself..let it flow by itself..

Went thru some old emails just now..read the last email my ex sent me..the feelings back then is exactly how I felt now..someone is giving up…sigh…

Well…

*Oblada Obladi Life goes on…*

Today ? Oh…the worst day of life…

Never thought that missing someone far away can be so bad…when you dont hear from that person for some time…you’ll get worried..especially if that person tend to call/sms you every now and then…even a few hours is equivalent to days and weeks…All sorts of things came across your mind..Is he fine? Is he ok? All sorts of things that one can imagine..when-worse-come-to-worst things …

Perhaps that’t the so-called test you have to go through in a relationship…trust, remember? That’s the particular word that I failed to learn back then..or should I say it depends on who’s the other person?If it’s someone you can trust, it’s a different story…

Someone asked "How are you supposed to know what he’s doing over there? For all you know he might be having someone else there" I know there are this probabilities that things like this can happen…trust me..I should know this more than anyone else…But …I think that’s something out of our control…even if he does, I’ll never know if he didn’t tell me…

So, my rationale? I’ll rate him in person when he comes back, sounds pathetic?His time there is something like…the past…yea even this minute this second is gonna be the past in the next 5 months…

Yea…ppl think I’m dumb …I’m naive…What can I do? I’m dumb and naive

And yea…I’m waiting for the 5 months to fly….March 2006…not the ending …just the beginning of better and bigger things

It has been 3 years since blaze left me…

I never thought I can get over him …at least not that soon…

I’ve been having cough for almost a month…till the muscles around my stomach were actually swollen due to prolong coughing…wow! Didn’t know that can happen…:)

And I suppose my hair was not 100% dry before I slept last night..causing me headache and neckpain this morning..when I thought of it..something came to my mind…blaze had it too…before he left..but he ignored it somehow..until now I still couldn’t accept the fact that he didn’t treat it earlier…if it was found out earlier…perhaps the ending would be different..perhaps..

Perhaps "joshua" is right..he’s gone coz good guys don’t have to suffer on earth especially this angel..who treats me like a princess..

I miss you blaze …and "joshua"..

Long distance relationship doesn’t always work

Tell me…who never heard of that remark? I experienced the same thing too..Penang and KL seems too far for someone…at least it was not the case for me…

And now the distance is 7 hours away with MAS…Never thought that history somehow repeats itself without you even realising it…but I’m fine with the distance, really..

Or perhaps that’s what I thought till some problems do occur from time to time..the distance is somehow a barrier to many things..too many misunderstandings can happen when you just don’t have enough time or even enough superficial contact …but at least we are not taking the "don’t fix it if it ain’t broke " policy…Problems must be resolved when it surfaces…that’s what I learned ..the hard way…

Somehow..I enjoyed the time I’m going through now..all those uncertainties…not sure of you liking or missing me or not..those things are just the rainbows that colours your life..at least we had experienced separation..I do believe it will do us some good in either way…

I’m now hoping that time will fly …at least I’m not feeling that 6months is too long… actually time is already flying for me…at least I didn’t notice that we have been going on this bizarre relationship for 2 months…

People had asked me " Are you sure what you’re doing?" And guess what I answered .."I rather regret trusting him than regret giving this relationship a try"

March is coming soon..right?