The Phi Number

That is the Angel song…remember?:)

Today is Friday…yess…finally..aft such a long long week…

So what i gotta talk abt this time?hmm…

So soon its Dec alr…Xmas is coming..i stil remember the first few blogs i wrote..it was about xmaS too …so soon its already another year..time flies when you look back at it..

And guess what?My ex/fren/the once-a-jerk is getting married tmr!!!!ahhhhhhhh……oh well..wish them well;)

Perhaps ppl (even he himself!!) think that my wishes arent for real…well..i did think about it today..I did have some flashback of our memories..I wont deny there were once happiness..too bad it was short-lived…

He appears to me as someone who wil not get married..he just love himself too much to give his freedom away to the word marriage…I bet he  has changed..thats the fact that even i cant imagine to believe…

But nevertheless..it’s true..the garden wedding wil be held tmr at Bangsar…i dont know where..since i wasn’t invited(ehem) ..

I really wish them well..really

OK..now..have anyone seen the MV story that goes like this ;

A guy’s gf is in a coma and dying…the guy wished to god that if the god is to grant his gf consciousness…he;s willing to become a dragonfly …God granted his wish and turned him into a dragonfly for 3years..only 3years later can he become human again..

As the gal woke up, he couldnt find her bf…she was sad but well taken care of by her doctor..soon she fell in luv with the doc..

At the end of the 3year…they are getting married..the dragonfly flew into the church but couldnt turn into human as its nt the time yet..soon the wedding vows exchanged and ended..the dragonfly turned into human back again only after the wedding ended..

My colls were telling me abt this sad MV..i listened to this and feel abit sad too…nt abit..quite a big bit:) im a sentimental person..too much of a sentimental person..sigh..

Colls asked me if i were the guy..will i do the same?will i regret?

I said i would do the same…even if its for the rest of my life..bcoz i believe becoming a dragonfly would not be as sad as losing someone you luv dearly….the pain is sth i will not dare to imagine and want to experience again in my life..

blaze is gone..i stil feel the sadness in me..i wont say that he’s stil a part of me..but the pain is stil there..the memories wont just fade away..the memories wil remain there…and i place it safe in a special part in my heart..

Thats all for now, my dear audiences…tq for listening to my grumbles about a MV…and the website below is sth that make me cry terribly too..those who can read chinese (or understand-listen) chinese can try this..i luv the background song too;)

http://www.oicq88.com/999/love3.htm

** PS; does anyone know that i was once a crazy(really crazy) fan of a Malaysian idol top 4 finalists?The one who sang Come What May by Air Supply..i had his photos and clips in my pc…haha…so crazy:)

Woke up at 7.45am…work til 12pm is already enuf to dread me for the whole day..duno y…

At this point of time…after a great movie "Tappy Feet"…Im almost worn out…and after that painfully bitter and looks-like-spoiled chinese medicine…wow…im gone..

Hey..anyway the Happy Feet was very entertaining..worth a watch…except tat few times (several times!) some kiddos kicked my seat vigorously frm the back..sigh..i enjoyed the movie nonetheless…

I bought sth today…hmm..a good pillow…finally aft so so long nt good sleep..two bottles of nail colours (i got 1cm long nail!!)…and i wanna buy alot more things..js tat my conscience is blocking my way..lets get a list down of it..

a)Levis jeans…(tat one almost RM300 one..;) )

b)LV bag…(neah js a dream:P)

c)a ring..(i used to like to wear one..js for fun..js for the fact i luv accessories:) )

Alright..im really tired..thats y im typing nonsense..sigh..i really hope i can get a Levis next year..;)

Does anyone had this thingie in them? I luv to use music to express my present feeling..happy unhappy..in luv or just aft breakup..music is my real companion..cant live without them..perhaps i shud add in the list..MP3 player

nitenite …

I bet this is not the first time i hated monday..i bet tis is not the first time im afraid of Monday..

But i believe the time wil through..and I’ll make it through…

God Bless..

*Blaze’s bday is coming soon….yoohoo…

Im here again…typing something in the middle of morning..just done wit memento..the movie…dun really get it til i read the sypnosis in a website..haha

Work is getting unbearable..its weird isnt it?? at one point you’re doing fine..feeling fine…at another , you felt like a dumpshit..i bet everyone including myself is not first timer in this kinda situation…but everytime it happens it just hit me flat on the ground..i hate it so so much…but it helps me grow..grow up..not taller:P

Whoa…even talking about this dump made me glass-eyed;(

Alrite..bad time do happen..just get it over with…i took a day off work today..i bet it has done me good..despite i stil think abt work today…

Am i a workaholic?Ppl said i am..i dun think so..yea..i cant take a day off work thinkin abt hw ppl gonna deal wit my work…i duno why..

I try to convince myself that this is a period where i’ll learn the most…the period where i’ll get to do everything myself…where ppl are short and u gotta do things urself…i tried…sometimes i can …stimes i cant convince myself..i feel its hard..i feel stressed…

Stimes i just wish i can have sit-at-home-and-wait-for-hubby that kinda life…ppl said im too young..24 still a long way to go..but im already worn out..

I believe lookin back at this blog few years down the road wil make me laugh…perhaps things has gone better..perhaps it didnt..

menghitung hari…detik demi detik…

Way to go ..meiyi…way to go..

Stuart Little said that phrase in the movie…sigh…i hope i can see the silver lining as soon as possible..

Perhaps its hidden somewhere…waiting for my effort to find it..so much more effort to look for it..

Im tired….I think i need some break..some real break..

Yea…cant believe its already a year since the last deeparaya…still remember my blog on that everyone?Whoa…time really flies…doesnt it?

What a great holiday…and its time to work again tomorrow..sigh..well..before that pls lemme tell u guys my fans my "great" holiday..

Hmm..on Monday I dint really go anywhere…went to Sg Wang for a short walk..then BTS …then to DesaSetapak for the pan mee and some game cd..hehe..

On Tues I went to my friend Zuraini’s hse for Rumah Terbuka..she got my fave laksa ..and some nasi tomato wit ayam masak merah..woooo…taste so good and not very hot…and aft that we all drive down to Malacca as I had planned earlier..just that Zu happen to be visiting her fiance as well..so we gave her a lift rather than her taking the bus alone..wat a great journey we had

Then again we ate at her fiance’s hse…thats a big hse…with 4 living rooms..imagine FOUR!! It was huge but very stuffy and hot…perhaps Malacca was abit drier than other states and the hse is only single storey..hmm..

Aft stuffing down some ketupat and rendang..off we go to Malacca town..it was already about 6pm…after all our plan is to eat some laksa and cendol before we head back home..but all the  laksa were sold out!!Can you imagine laksa in each and every stall there were SOLD OUT???!!Sigh…we only managed to have the cendol in some nt very nice shop…

We met up a friend there…he told us about this Baba House in Jonker Walk…It was oni RM89 a nite’s stay…hmm..since we didn’t manage to have the laksa..we decided to stay for a nite in Malacca..haha..without any preparations..:P went to get toothbrush, toothpaste and some water from Giant..

It was a not bad hotel…and a few other antique concept hotel around there was full house..this Baba House has a very beautiful lobby..with all the antiques..though it gets a little eerie when i looked at the antique mirror..it wasnt too bad for that pricing at this festive season..i decided to stay there again for my nex trip there;)

So..we had a nite’s stay there…woke up at 9.30am…went to have the American Breakfast provided by the hotel…then off we head to get some local food (gula melaka…belacan..yeh chi tong…etc)…then later on we hit a laksa stall…had a bowl of it…then went to another stall to tapau some more for mommy ..then that’s the end of the trip..

Oh yea..we saw an accident on the way back..luckily nobody is badly hurt i guess..saw them lying on the road..safely..

So…tomorrow gotta work..sigh sigh..i began to hate it..but its crab fiesta this fri…so i shall look forward to weekend again…:P

And..ironically..my throat was not in a too bad condition yet..hmm..thank god..

When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It’s so hard to believe but
It’s all coming back to me

Alright…its just part of the song..that i was listening to just now…nothing..

What to say about me??

Erm…I was on mc for two days…acute purging and vomitting…it came out of nowhere…vomitted in office for few times…unbelievably weak…i cant even sit up straight…i squatted on the street while waiting for backup..haha..my colleague was shocked and too worried to leave me alone..

That kinda happening tells me what kinda ppl u can depend on when your sick and who u just cant depend on…the king of my home js wont bother..asked me to get a cab…huh huh…cool..

FINE! I was still vomiting n purging on tuesday…but recovered on wednesday..went to work on thursday..and another thing..i realized something..when your sick..the last thing u wanna hear is sth like " you’re so weak…you should exercise more…sweat more. " No offence here..but I cried too when i was sick..i bet YOU do too…right?

Forget it…just being oversensitive i guess..

Life goes on…oblada ladi…haha

PS: I got two wedding bombs in hand at the moment…one next sat…the other the next sat…whoa….Congrats MEIHAN and LILING….

I hate what im going thru now…

i hate the feeling of the beginning of weekdays..i hate to not being able to sleep due to worriness about the stuff at work..i hate it so so  much…

Perhaps this is what we all go thru at the first few months…i suppose it is…never mind…i’ll try my best to do it..i hope i can make it..

What is super duper ugly?Or the question is who is super duper ugly?ME….;(

It was my Annual Dinner last fri…it was a real eye-opening event to me..imagine this super skinny gal lookin for a dress..sigh…cant really get one…but manage to get a dress from this great shop… Little black book…small shop..good clothes and affordable prices..haha..nw i sound like im the owner of this shop..i js bought a pair of shoes and top again today..planning to wear it to my best friend cum colleague’s wedding..

Ok..back to the dinner…well…tis dress is in black..as i listened to my sis n mom saying that pink color wil make me look too outstanding…makin me chose the black dress…my sis even shoved me another ugly dress saying that its nice..yuckie..i bet she’s js too conversative..she cant take low cuts nor spaghetti strap dresses..sigh..

So, I went to this dinner..hoping i wont be too outstanding wit tis golden ribbon…to my shock..there’s this gal in the same lift with mine wearing the most drastic sickening dress i could have ever imagined…she got this dress wit the cut from the back of her neck to the lower waist…revealing her lacey undie….urghh…and she;s nt even any near to Kate Moss or Amber Chia…

And that is not it…there are even ppl wearing a bazooka ..i duno wat u call it..this sharp end thingie in front of her breast..to disguise Madonna…since its a celebrity nite..even the malaysian Phua Chu Kang is around..haha..funny..so basically my gold ribbon is js a wallpaper:P

And right after the dinner..we went to sing K in Sg Wang…wow..thats cool..after yelling to each other at the dinner due to the loud speakers..i had left almost no voice to sing..sigh..din manage to sing out my talents;(so so sad..

We sang up to 4am…i cant believe we were out for almost 24 hrs…with almost no voice..i and Ester sang our final song…I have a date with spring..nice one..;)

What else to report here..hmm…i went to a reflexology today..wow that hurts..but pain is good…its nt bad..they said its gonna help you in the sleeping..so we;ll see tonight..;)

I enjoyed listening to some sad songs..its not merely because it reminds me of anyone or any unhappy moments in life..i guess i just like to listen to those songs and cry for no apparent reasons..its just me..and of coz there are certain songs that reminds me of certain person..but it wasnt that much of an effect anymore..so dun worry..

Last Friday was a sad day to me…my dear supervisor left the bank for good..i cant believe she’s leaving so soon..i guess good things wont be there for u for long..things gotta move on..sigh..she;s the best boss i ever had..thanks for all the patience and guidance, Ms Gan:)

And tomorrow is a new day..the beginning of a journey..to the neverland..neverending-suffering land..haha..

Take k everyone..

Have anyone ever tasted this Malay dish called Nasi Kerabu? This dish is something like nasi lemak,except the rice is blue in color. It has some side dish like raw vege that they called ulam which consists of raw bean sprouts (taugeh), kacang botol (if im nt mistaken),cabbage and so on..and dried coconut flakes they called it kerisek..and u can add in roasted beef as well…they serve it with fish crackers (keropok) …

And why am i talkin abt tis?Coz this is the food that several colleagues of mine and myself reward ourselves on every Friday as to mark the end of sufferings and the beginning of the joy of weekend…haha..this RM2.50 breakfast is well worth it…

The oni down part of this breakfast is tat…this nasi kerabu is served with a super super hot peri peri green cili padi sauce…its deliciously tasty..and tremendously hot..at least its over hot for my throat..i cant take it wit the sambal..sigh..even having it today without the sambal irritates my throat..i guess is the roasted beef…what the heck …damn throat..damn..

The chinese med?i dont see it working yet..from the day i took it till now..it didnt work ..my toncils are always swollen..

Have anyone ever feel like they are gonna die? I got the exact feeling when i look at durian or some other super hot delicacies…whenever i look at the durian..i imagined how i’ll die of pain if someone forces me to gulp down the few slices of it…its too real..i can imagine the pain vividly..

I used to eat hot food and get some slight o minor throat discomfort…and now its a total no-no for me..i dunno wat went wrong..

So i guess i can sing the song " Superman"..

"Its not easy to be…..me…."

Call me pathetic but you’re even more pathetic for reading this pathetic blog

Take k everyone

PS# i had a weird dream last saturday..its weird to have a dream of this person..i suppose i need to meet up this fella before all my memories of him is gone..although tis shud be one of his intentions..but he;s too busy with his million dollar plan..sigh